It was early hours of sunday morning, after watching a film with your daddy. He was talking to you in my tummy when I suddenly thought, I hadn't felt you move, infact I don't remember any of your movements that day and I thought that maybe because I was busy doing things as your sister's were both out for the day, that maybe I just hadn't noticed them or maybe they weren't as strong as they usually are. I had gone to bed and laid on my back as I know that you would always move when I was laying in that position.....I waited and still couldn't feel anything. I tossed and turned for a while hoping that maybe you were sleeping and I could wake you just to feel your movements. A few hours later I got up to call the nhs as I wasn't sure if it was just me being paranoid at this point, but something told me there was something wrong and I felt empty. The nhs had spoke with epsom hospital who told me to go to st helier. When I told your daddy, he said 'lets go get them to wake him up' by this point something inside told me that they weren't going to wake you. We arrived at the hospital and were given a room to go in when 2 midwives came in to do the scan..... The screen wasn't facing me at first as they wanted to check but the silence said it all. They had to get a doctor to come and check.... I laid on the bed looking at that blank expressions and just knew that you were no longer breathing. I looked to your dad who was on the other side of me, when the midwife went to hold my hand and tell me how sorry she was. Two days later I came back to the hospital to give birth to you. You were so tiny and so cold.... but perfect to us. Your daddy and I stayed in hospital over night with you, and held you closely, trying to keep you warm. At times we were trying to be quiet so we didn't wake you, but it started to sink in that you were already in a deep sleep. That day you took a bit part of us with you, you left a hole in my heart that will never been filled. We love and miss you so much Leo, you are our life and our soul and one day we will be together again, but until then sleep tight our precious child xxxx